...infinity

If you're reading this... you probably know me. You probably are a friend or acquaintance. And if you are either of those... you know that life dealt me a new set of cards. Well - it wasn't just I who was dealt this set of cards- it was my mom, my brothers, my family and my friends- of which are all family. The greatest man in my life is with us no longer. My amazing, wonderful daddy passed away in May. I have tried my hardest to put words on paper... but I have not been able to do it. Words seem futile... I can't seem to find anything to do my dad justice and I can't find the words to convey how I feel.
Sure - lately I feel better than I did a few months ago. I have found a strength from somewhere inside me. But there are moments when i breakdown...when my strong defenses fail me. Those days have been a little further between than they used to be. But just the same - the hurt and longing is still there and ever present.
I titled this blog infinity... I did that for a reason. You see- about 10 days after my dad passed I got a tattoo on my inner left wrist - its an infinity symbol with the word love in it- as part of the infinity symbol - the chain never breaks. It may have been done in haste- but I look at it every day- sometimes several times a day. And I still love it... its a part of me - just like my dad was and is - infinitely.

 

I hope in the coming weeks, days and months that the words are easier to find...